Challenges-Past, Present, Future

Wow, it's been awhile since I've last posted my thoughts here. It sure hasn't been for lack of something to write; on the contrary, the last eight months have been filled with a lot going on but I've just neglected putting my thoughts down. Anyways, I wanted to write about something that has been very important to me since my milestone birthday three years ago.

I visited my doctor last week ( a specialist who I've been visiting since last May) and he offered me some great news (because this will be posted in a public forum, I will not go into detail); I'm just about at the end of my health challenge and it looks like I will come out victorious. Although it is not life-threatening, it was something that in retrospect I realize had altered my life for a very long time. I can say this now because I look and feel different which is a major blessing for me. My family and close friends know that I am very humble and don't usually brag but I feel GREAT!!! When I decided to take the steps to improve my health, not knowing the tough road ahead was a little scary. However, being as stubborn and determined as I was, the decision put in the work was an easy one. And, it's paid off. Health has always been important to me and I hope that if nothing else, I inspire others to try the same.

The Roundup

Yes, I know. It's been some months since I've posted. The thoughts were there but the desire to put them on the Internet wasn't. But, here I am. Been dealing with various things and trying to put me first, even if no one else will. I'm finally getting my fibroid issue under control; the hrt therapy is really starting to work and I can see that my fibroids are beginning to shrink. For those of you who are experiencing issues with fibroids, I recommend researching all of your options. Doctors are very quick to suggest hysterectomies as that is all they know and it gains them more money than other treatments. It took a lot of research and persistence on my part to get to where I am. Ladies, keep control of your bodies; it's the only one you'll have.

On the professional aspect, I've hit a roadblock. I feel as it I just go to work now to collect a paycheck to try to keep up with the bills. It's no longer challenging and I feel as if my job doesn't know what to do with me. I'm a person that doesn't like to go to work and just do anything for the sake of doing it. My job has to be fulfilling, teach me something and leave me feeling at the end of the day like I've really accomplished something. I don't feel any of that so I'm currently taking steps to correct this and offer a solution for both me and my company. I'm a classy person and would like to remain as such.

Personally, I've been going out a little more. Not waiting for the phone to ring or someone to invite me out, just taking myself out there and meeting different people. It's a little overwhelming at times but I'm slowly getting used to it. I guess it's what happens when you've been with a person for so long that was content with being at home most of the time. Been on a few dates also but nothing worth talking about. I do however, have a couple of 'prospects' that I'm interested in so we'll see what the future brings. All I know is that I will continue to keep my heart under lock and key until the right person proves they are worthy.

Lastly, I finally received my new couch! I figure that if I'm going to stay in my current apartment for a little while longer, I may as well make it look like someone lives here. Once I get the exes boxes out of here, I'll purchase a chair or two. Then, I'll work on getting a flat screen. In the meantime, I can at least invite a couple of folk over for some food, drink and conversation without worrying where they'll sit.

Ciao for now.

Life is Like a Dance

Life is like a dance. Sometimes the steps are easy to learn; sometimes they're difficult. Sometimes, the movement is fast and furious but at times it can be slow, deliberate and graceful. Both take a lot of time, practice and patience. However, if you stick with it and not give up, the end result can be very rewarding.

Random Stuff

I'm at peace today and happy about it. I've talked through and resolved my differences with my bff, gotten things back on track with dealing with my fibroids and gotten all of my bills paid for the week. Then only thing lingering is this annoying sinus headache that won't seem to go away. Hopefully, the warm weather this wee will help.

I attended my bff's husband's stepshow last night and had a great time. I've been enthralled with stepping ever since I went to a show back in the 90s. It's mesmerizing to see these men and women step with such precision and grace. If my life had been a little different and I attended college earlier in life, I most likely would've been one of those people. However, my fate was towards a different direction and it's only now that I'm beginning to understand what that is.

Off to do some serious cooking and cleaning!

Am I a True Friend?

I like to consider myself as such. Granted, I've been terrible in the past with putting up the effort to maintain friendships and some of them have suffered because of it. But, as I've matured and learned to understand just how important my friends are to me, I feel that I've turned things around. I keep my circle of friends small because there are only a few people around me who I can count on through thick and thin. These select few are my comrades and I know that if needed, they would be right by my side. So, I try to do the same. Treat them the way that I'd want to be treated.

So, what do you do when you discover something that makes you feel as if one of those people are distancing themselves from you for some unknown reason? Especially if you have no clue if you're to blame for the sudden shift? What if you were told one thing and then found out it wasn't what it seemed. How should you react. I don't know.

What I do know for sure is that it doesn't lessen the hurt that I feel at the moment.

New Year, New Perspective

I'm trying to become better and blog more often, not for anyone else but me. It's part of my new perspective on life. I've decided to try harder at not letting everything get to the core of me. Those of you who know Libras know that we are people who feel deeply, love deeply and hurt just as deeply. However, those things take a lot of energy and I'd rather concentrate on the things that will help me become a better person. So, in 2008 I've pledged the following for myself-

1. Continue to take care of my health and strive towards my weight goals
2. Pursue my quest of becoming a homeowner
3. Surround myself with positive people
4. Let go of negative energy
5. Take the next step professionally in my life

Everything else is gravy!!

Martinis for the Soul

Last night, I had the privilege of spending some time with my closest friends. You must understand that in today's world true, genuine, no-nonsense, will tell you like it is people are hard to come by. They're even harder to keep. But the classy group that I hung out with last night proves that it's still possible. Everyone just wanted to wind down from the stresses that life takes part of and enjoy some time to relax. We double-fisted martinis, courtesy of the Loft, had a great meal and just reveled in some great conversation. Then, we headed over to this spot that was embedded with youths who were born during the eighties (which happens to be my son's era!). It's been dubbed the 'hot box' for several reasons. The music though, was reminiscent of all the jams that I used to listen to and buy daily. The youngins reminded a lot of myself when I was their age.

I had an awesome time hanging with my homies. So, for all of you folks who are blessed to be surrounded by awesome friends, nurture those relationships so that they'll last a lifetime because that's what life is about. Can't wait to do it again in 2008!!!