My Dream Vacation

Today is my first day back from vacation and I'm still jetlagged but it's a wonderful feeling. Man, I needed this vacation like an alcoholic needs a drink (and I had plenty of them :))! I had an AWESOMELY wonderful time and my upcoming posts will recap the experiences that I had. I tried to keep a running journal each day but I was so busy having fun, that didn't work out too well. However, it was a time that I will never forget so writing about it will be easy. I'll also work on the pictures that I took and see how many of them I can post !

Stay tuned.....

Guilty as Charged....

Have you ever felt a wave of guilt take over you and not know how to handle it? I mean the kind where you get a sick feeling in the pit of your stomach even though you've been told that you shouldn't feel that way? Well, that's the way I'm feeling right now........

A Release.....

Yeah, i'm a little drunk. So what!? A girl needs too have a little fun every now and then. Besides, I got a chance to hangout with my homie, TD. The girl is more fun than she'll ever realize! Luv her to death! Basically, we both needed a release from the everyday rigamorole so I hope that she had as much fun as I did!

One more day til vacation.....! Woo to the mutha fuckin Hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Disappointment

I tried on some capris that I just bought today and my fat ass can't fit them! I know that I've been under stress lately and have not stuck to my eating plan but damn! Can a sister get a break? This will just make me more determined than ever to get my ass in shape when I return from vacation. I refuse to let all the hard work that I've put in go to waste. The same week that I return I'm joining a gym and my fat, jingly ass will be visiting there at least three days/nights a week. Those who know me well know that once I'm focused on a goal, it's a wrap. It will be difficult, I know, but I'm tired of struggling with my clothes and my in-between sizes.

Besides, exercise is a good way to release stress and I'm dealing with a lot of it at the moment.

The Countdown Continues.....

Six more days til I depart on vacation and I can't wait! I'm finally starting to feel excited in anticipation of what I hope will be a fun time. So much so that I didn't feel my usual Monday blahs. I can actually say that today was a relatively happy day at work. It became a little hairy towards that end of the day but that's to be expected under voluntary slavery. Whenever the help is happy, the massa's gotta try to take that away. But, I didn't let them. My girl, TD helped me to remain my silly self today (much appreciated TD!). I've decided that I'm going to ride this wave of happiness for as far as it will take me this week.

Now, off to pay some bills and finish preparing.......

Whew! I Made It!

Well, this week is finally in the record books and I made it through (Thank you GOD!). Now, the countdown really begins (9 days until I leave for vacation!). I was stressin' a little because I have a list yards long of what I still have left to pickup and my head is not really into it. The problem is, I don't like to shop. Why? Because, I find it stressful. Traveling from store to freakin' store not finding what you want (or better yet, not finding it in your size) is not my idea of a fun experience. And, if I am lucky to find something, I seem to always attract the "waitI'mjustgoingtogetonemorething" freaks who, once they do bring their asses to the line, suddenly whip out a credit card! I like to get what I need and get the hell outta the store with as little drama as possible, thank you very much. Anyway, I did manage to put a little dent in my list without goinbg over my budget so I'm fine.

A while back, I made a promise to myself to try to do something kind for another person everyday whether it be words of encouragement, listening when someone needed an ear, giving a small token of appreciation, etc. It's my small way of giving back because there were times when I needed all of those things and was fortunate enough to have people in my life who could provide what I needed. And, it makes me feel good knowing that I put a smile on someone's face ot brightened their day. Like today, I was IMing with my friend, TD. We've both been going through some things in our lives and because we have the friendship that we do, been able to lean on one another when necessary. I'll define our relationship in another post but I just want to say that I am TOTALLY Blessed that this young lady is in my life. She may not know it but she has surpassed the line of friendship straight into family membership. And with me, that takes some doing because I don't have many people who I call a friend much less family. So, I picked up a small gift for her that I knew should would like and when I told her what it was, I could feel the smile on her face!

It's things like that that give my life meaning and purpose. :)

It's Been a Long Day

This week has been relatively quiet for me workwise but mentally, it's taken a lot out of me. Since the month started, I've been counting down the days until I leave on my first cruise to the Western Carribbean (10 days to go). Right before I left work, I made a mental note of the last vacation day that I took this year and wasn't really surprised that it was back in January. I've been known to go long stretches without taking a break and this time, it's taken a toll on me. I so need this trip it's not even funny.

Today, I found it diffucult to stay focused on my work and that's just not me. Usually, even when I'm angry, I can pop the work out left and right; today, mistake after mistake after mistake and it became frustrating. Something is definitely wrong and I must get to the bottom of it or I'll either go crazy or become a serious alcoholic and neither idea sounds appealing (LOL!).

Lot's to Say

I have a lot on my mind which is why I decided to create this blog. However, I'm really a private person so this is a new journey for me and may take a while to get used to. But, as the days go by, I'm hoping that this will become easier as I have a lot to say.

Right now though, I'm beat so I'll catch-up on some much needed sleep.

Stay tuned.....