Relaxation

I arrived back into the New York City area late last night from California and during the entire trip home, I smiled because I was finally in a relaxed state of mind. You see, my last relaxing date was back in March when I accompanied TD to Fort Lauderdale to visit her Godmother. Let's see, that was a good four months ago. And my spirit has been in the dumps ever since with one stressful situation after the next. See, stress doesn't wear well on me so I need that time to re-energize from time to time. This trip was the perfect prescription to get me back to where I need to be to conquer my short-term goals in the upcoming months. Man, the bed that I slept on was a 'Heavenly' bed and it lived up to it's name. Events were planned for the two days that I was there but I made sure to steal some time to take a nap. Boy, that was the best thing I could've done. I felt very at peace when I awakened and it was as though nothing could take it away. I went on a tour of the city which was very cool and took some pics (which I'll try to post) to hone my photography skills. Since I encounter tourists everyday near my job, it was refreshing to be on the other side and be a tourist myself. All in all I had a great time witnessing my friend's journey as she begins her life with her new husband while also taking the opportunity to get in some much needed rest and relaxation. Now, I feel that I can tackle life's obstacles and head closer to my goals.

Wedded Bliss

I finally have a moment to blog about my trip to California. I visited the state for the first time for a very joyous occasion. My friend Kim, married her soulmate this past Saturday. I hadn't seen her since she moved to Cali 2 1/2 years ago so we tried to make up for lost time. She looked well and had this everpresent glow about her that showed me that she was truly in love and in a peaceful place in her life. She really deserves the blessings that she has and although she has three sisters, I felt as proud as all of them.

I met her new husband, Steven who is a really nice guy. He smiled each time he saw their family and friends and was real laid back about all of the festivities. You could tell that he was as excited as Kim to be taking the big leap into married life.

They chose an Asian theme for their wedding which surprised me a little (seeing as thought they met in the Bahamas) but they pulled it together well. Kim's wedding gown was made from imported material straight from Thailand and the Guyanese seamtress that she had to make it did a wonderful job. Although the dress was a simple design, the intricate details really made it stand out. The guys wore traditional Asian tuxes and everyone down to the flowergirl was beautiful. Most of the people who attended the services were made up of their family and close friends and you could tell there was a lot of love in the room. The only sad moment of the ceremony were the two empty seats that were set in honor of Kim's dad who passed away last year and Steven's mom who passed in 2003. But, you could tell that their spirits were definitely present.

It seems as though I'm losing friends either to marriage or relocating their family for a better life and it's something that I'll have to come to terms with but you know what? They are taking these steps to make their lives better and that's what counts to me. Hopefully one day I can also find that happiness that brings joy to people's hearts.

Unsettling Dreams

Last night, I had a series of unsettling dreams. In the first one, I was going head-to-head with my faceless boss about everything and nothing. He would speak to me and I'd be ready to rip his head off, and I would ask him a question and he'd reply by saying things like "don't you know what the hell you're doing yet?". That dream was followed by me walking down a dark street in the middle of nowhere by myself trying to find my way home. But, each time I thought that I was turning down the correct street, I would be back at my starting point. In the final segment of this nightmare, my son and I were back at our first apartment in Brooklyn. We had been evicted from our New Jersey place so we decided to take up residence at our old one until we could figure out where we were headed. My unofficial ex-boyfriend was nowhere in the picture so that gave me some solace. I guess that I must have awakened from my sleep at least three times last night because I'm tired as hell right now.

My upcoming trip this weekend is very much needed as my nerves are very frazzled and I feel the burnout emanating throughout my being. I need time to seriously re-energize cause I feel that I'm on the verge of a serious breakdown.