Weird Feeling

You know how sometimes you get a feeling that something is going to happen that will just ruin your entire day? Well, I awoke to that feeling this morning and it has me feeling like blech. I'm gonna go see if I can shake it off so that I can get through this day. I'll holla later.

I Can Feel The Burn Now

My trainer warned me that this would happen. I awoke this morning to the soreness and stiffness that I was told that I would feel after the workout that I had at the gym yesterday. But you know what? It was well worth it. I pushed myself to test my limits and I released some of the stress that's been stored in my body. Oh well. I'll be back there on Monday for some more punishment.

The Perfect Gentleman

I've been having this recurring dream lately about a man who I'm infatuated with. I say that because some would call me a "fan" because he is a somewhat well-known person but I'm not. I mean, I've listened to his voice many times for years and it's always affected me the same way; chills throughout my body as I listen to his soothing voice but I've come to realize that since I met him, it's deeper than that. Now mind you, I'm not a celebrity hound and never have been. I see people who have a particular talent that may cause them to be in the spotlight but they're regular people just like me.

Anyway, the dream almost always is the same. I'm courted by this gentleman in ways that I never imagined could happen. Not just the usual holding the door open kind of thing, either. He's the perfect gentleman. He knows what I like and ensures that I have what I need, which is not much. This particular time, we are at a function where he is sorta working so I'm hanging with my friend, TD while he does his thing. Suddenly, one of my favorite songs, "I Love You Just Because" by Anita Baker comes on and the song is dedicated to me. I look around in shock and he appears in front of me and says "I've wanted to tell you this for awhile." At that point, I awaken from the dream. I've tried desperately to fall back asleep to continue the dream from that point to no avail.

*Sigh* Sometimes I wonder if dreams really are meant to come true.

New Beginnings

I know that it's been some time since I've blogged and it's not due to the lack of anything to say. On the contrary, I've had LOTS to blog about just no willpower to actually put the thoughts down. Remember the rollercoaster of emotions that I wrote about? Well, they continue each day and I'm just trying to gain more control of them. It's a work in progress that hopefully will make me a better person.

I went to my first full workout session this morning after a few mishaps getting on track. I pushed myself a little more than the average "newbie" but it's because A. I have a LOT of stress to release and B. I have a four month goal to get into better shape. Those who know me well know that I'm stubborn when it comes to focusing on a goal. I don't play around. So, even though I know that this is going to be tough, in the long run it will pay many dividends. I've set a three-day per week workout schedule for the next three weeks. Gotta start off small. We'll see what happens.

stay tuned....