Evolving

It's a dark, rainy Sunday morning and I should feel lazy and take advantage of it but somehow, I feel that I should be doing something. I have to put away my clothes from doing laundry yesterday, get a jumpstart on preparing dinner (I've been in a strong Betty Crocker mode lately) and do my hair. Maybe it's all attributed to the 'evolution' that I've felt lately. Friday, I had dinner with TD to begin the celebration of our upcoming birthdays (Happy Birthday, Sis!) and I'd mentioned that I felt that I had evolved into a better person over the past ten years of my life. I went from being celibate to being in a long-term relationship (which recently ended), I've endured two job layoffs (which led me to the IT field, my dream career), I attended and graduated from college (another dream fulfilled) while raising my son as a single mother and I've learned so much about who I am as an African-American woman in a difficult society.

Ten years ago, I didn't go out much since I really didn't have the time, money or real desire to meet and mingle with people who I didn't know well. I was content with spending my time with my studies and my family. Now, I welcome the opportunity to network with people, talk with them and get their opinions about life. Society is a complex and strange animal and I'd like to learn as much as I can about her.

In four days, I take that leap from the thirties into the forties and to be honest, I'm totally ready. Last year when I turned 39, I was hesitant to even contemplate what turning 40 would be like for me. But, really? I can't wait! I don't look 40, I don't feel 40 and I'm not even sure how a 40 year-old should behave but do know one thing. I'm ready for it! And I'm bringing sexy back, y'all!!!